It took me twenty three years to get to this place and I am here. I am finally in a place where I am in love with myself and happy with who and what I have in my life.
A few years ago, I had myself convinced that I was never going to be okay again. It was such a dark and empty place that ironically enough was filled with monsters and nightmares. I had no plans for the future or even thought about the next day. But here I am.
I have learned that I love watermelon gummy bears and kind of like dark chocolate. Grey's Anatomy is a real addiction and so is coffee. Try to get to your car as soon as possible when you get a kidney stone or you're going to embarrass yourself in public. Alcohol upsets my stomach but red moscato tastes so good with frozen fruit in it and always get the pina colada when you go out. Listen to more music because it'll ease your anxiety. Falling in love is okay and you'll never regret it, but don't give multiple chances to the ones who take your heart for granted. Do NOT give a shit what anybody thinks and don't hold back, it's not worth it. Do it now, don't wait.
I have made the greatest friends in the universe. I found out that soul mates could be friends and not necessarily a relationship. I went on dates and realized that not everyone is the one and that's totally okay. I started working out and eating healthy and lost twenty pounds. I got offered a job with an amazing company that will practically set me for life. I said yes to things that I wouldn't have and now have the greatest memories. I am still finding faith and still learning and have so much room to grow. I found love within my heart for myself. And it's the most amazing feeling in the entire world.
I just want to say that it does get better. You just have to work for it and don't stop working for it. And yes, life is going to be shit show sometimes. And that sometimes can be for a long while. But how can you enjoy the good if you don't know what bad feels like? It gets better.